Family Memories And A Downward Spiral Where to start. It's been a really rough week filled with tears and overwhelming emotions. We have a family facebook group on messenger where we post news everyone needs to know. The topic of family tree …. who's who …. came up and with it some painful memories and new information. Whenever the 'stepmom' comes up in conversation, so too does the memory of how awful she was to her step children (of which my mother was one) and her own children. One of my cousins disclosed that in addition to being physically abusive to them, she also withheld food and other resources. Particularly to the stepchildren. She would put out food but the stepchildren were not allowed to partake. And now at 90+ years of age, and in a nursing home suffering from dementia, my uncle Danny is asking “is this food? Is this for me? Am I allowed to eat this food?” I find that absolutely heart wrenching. It made me so sad.
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Traumatic Event Memory I'm not sure what brought this into the forefront of my memory, but I suddenly remembered an event that happened when I was about ten years old. My dad had found a cottage to purchase. I'm not 100% sure but I think he might have found it through a work colleague … maybe a friend of a friend type thing. At any rate, before purchasing the cottage, the property owner offered for our family to spend a weekend there to see how we liked it. My dad got the keys and we packed up for a weekend away from the city. The first night that we were there, someone broke in, in the middle of the night. An imbibed individual and his girlfriend. This man was shouting at us and threatening us saying that this was his cottage and we were trespassing. He threw us out in the middle of the night. I'm not sure how the police got involved. No one had cel phones back then and the cottage didn't have a phone. I suspect my dad drove the 2 m
Canada Day 2020 This is the first Canada Day in 25yrs that my dog sport show has not been performing somewhere. It feels really odd to have nothing to do. At one point I used to have three venues and three teams booked on Canada Day. The last few have had us double booked. And this year nothing. Everything canceled due to the pandemic. Pandemic Paranoia Tonight for the first time I felt a real sense of panic with regards to covid 19, and had a minor meltdown. Still kind of freaked out. I was getting water at the water refill station and a man came in while I was there. Now the entire inside standing area of the station is 7fr x 5ft. So no possibility of people being 6ft apart. This man wore no mask, came into a tiny indoor space, and started talking. I stood as far away from him as space would allow and when the bottle I was filling was full, I said, "why don't you go ahead of me" (as I had 3 more bottles to go), and I stood outside