Canada Day 2020
This is the first Canada Day in 25yrs that my dog sport show has not been performing somewhere. It feels really odd to have nothing to do. At one point I used to have three venues and three teams booked on Canada Day. The last few have had us double booked. And this year nothing. Everything canceled due to the pandemic.
Pandemic Paranoia
Tonight for the first time I felt a real sense of panic with regards to covid 19, and had a minor meltdown. Still kind of freaked out. I was getting water at the water refill station and a man came in while I was there. Now the entire inside standing area of the station is 7fr x 5ft. So no possibility of people being 6ft apart. This man wore no mask, came into a tiny indoor space, and started talking. I stood as far away from him as space would allow and when the bottle I was filling was full, I said, "why don't you go ahead of me" (as I had 3 more bottles to go), and I stood outside by my car until he was finished and exited the kiosk. After he left, I went back inside and sanitized the door handles, and the buttons on the machine, before resuming the filling of my bottles. And then the panic started to overtake me. How do I know that this person was not contagious with covid 19? He was breathing and talking in MY personal space. They say being in small spaces and talking is more risky 'cos when you're talking you're spewing more droplets into the air. Why he came inside, I do not know. It's not air conditioned in there so he wasn't escaping the heat. It wasn't raining so he wasn't avoiding getting wet. Most people either wait in their cars, or wait outside until the person inside is finished. This man apparently had no sense of social distancing or sanitizing > heck for all he knew I could be covid contagious. He touched all the buttons and doorknobs that I had touched. For the first time since all this started I really feel that I've been put at risk and feeling anxiety about the possibility of exposure. And no, I wasn't wearing my mask because it was late at night and I was alone. There's usually no one there late at night and IF someone comes along, they wait outside so there is no close interaction. In all the years that I've used this refill station, I've never encountered someone come inside while I'm inside. It's like an unspoken rule that you wait for the person ahead of you to finish and exit before you enter.
So now I'm trying to calm myself and not let my head take me to worrisome scenarios. That being said, I think I'll take a mega dose of vitamin C to boost my immune system ……. just in case.
I'm really freaked out.
This is the first Canada Day in 25yrs that my dog sport show has not been performing somewhere. It feels really odd to have nothing to do. At one point I used to have three venues and three teams booked on Canada Day. The last few have had us double booked. And this year nothing. Everything canceled due to the pandemic.
Pandemic Paranoia
Tonight for the first time I felt a real sense of panic with regards to covid 19, and had a minor meltdown. Still kind of freaked out. I was getting water at the water refill station and a man came in while I was there. Now the entire inside standing area of the station is 7fr x 5ft. So no possibility of people being 6ft apart. This man wore no mask, came into a tiny indoor space, and started talking. I stood as far away from him as space would allow and when the bottle I was filling was full, I said, "why don't you go ahead of me" (as I had 3 more bottles to go), and I stood outside by my car until he was finished and exited the kiosk. After he left, I went back inside and sanitized the door handles, and the buttons on the machine, before resuming the filling of my bottles. And then the panic started to overtake me. How do I know that this person was not contagious with covid 19? He was breathing and talking in MY personal space. They say being in small spaces and talking is more risky 'cos when you're talking you're spewing more droplets into the air. Why he came inside, I do not know. It's not air conditioned in there so he wasn't escaping the heat. It wasn't raining so he wasn't avoiding getting wet. Most people either wait in their cars, or wait outside until the person inside is finished. This man apparently had no sense of social distancing or sanitizing > heck for all he knew I could be covid contagious. He touched all the buttons and doorknobs that I had touched. For the first time since all this started I really feel that I've been put at risk and feeling anxiety about the possibility of exposure. And no, I wasn't wearing my mask because it was late at night and I was alone. There's usually no one there late at night and IF someone comes along, they wait outside so there is no close interaction. In all the years that I've used this refill station, I've never encountered someone come inside while I'm inside. It's like an unspoken rule that you wait for the person ahead of you to finish and exit before you enter.
So now I'm trying to calm myself and not let my head take me to worrisome scenarios. That being said, I think I'll take a mega dose of vitamin C to boost my immune system ……. just in case.
I'm really freaked out.
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