Leveling Out

 

My emotions seem to be leveling out over the past couple of days.   Tuesday I started to feel a bit better.   And Wednesday a little bit better again.   Today I’m doing okay but feeling some anxiety.   Perhaps the recent downward spiral was the result of a few weeks of being very busy and probably trigger stacking, and then once the show wrapped it was a matter of ‘coming down’,  or in my case, crashing from the weeks of adrenaline spikes.

 

There are times when coming home triggers a host of emotions including those feelings of being alone, unloved, unwanted, unworthy.   The thought of coming home to an empty house.  No one to talk to.  No one to care about or who cares about me.   Sometimes I just don’t want to come home.    I just can’t bear it.

 

Meanwhile I’m trying to work up the courage to go and get a covid 19 vaccine.   I’m needle and pain phobic and it’s causing me a lot of stress and anxiety worrying about it.