August 14,  2020

Feeling really physically drained today.   I've have a dull pain in the left side of my back for a couple of days now.  Today the left side of my abdomen is also experiencing a dull pain.   I feel full despite not having eaten much, and seem to have a mild heartburn.   I just took some Pepcid AC to hopefully get some relief.    Overall I'm just feeling really drained.    I have to drive to Toronto tonight and really don't feel up to it.  But …. it's work and I need the money.   One dog going home and one coming in.   The need for boarding is slowly returning as covid 19 restrictions are gradually lifted and people begin to travel a bit.

Violent Dream

I was in a house > upstairs > and I hear a terrible fight between a man and woman.  The man is yelling and he is beating the woman.  He beats her to death.  In the dream I'm scared.   Terrified.   I know that he knows that I know what happened.   I over hear him talking to another woman  (his wife) and he says he's going out and will come back later to deal with the body.   Once he leaves,  I go downstairs and see the beaten bloody body and I decide that I'm going to tell the other woman that,  "this time",  I'm going to call the police.   But then I realize that would put me in danger,  so I go back upstairs and call the police in secret.   My plan was to get dressed and leave the premises before the police arrived (or the man came back)  and that would keep me safe.    As I'm getting ready to leave,  the dream has me in a bathroom brushing my hair.   Suddenly the man comes back and comes into the bathroom,  closes the door, and starts threatening me about keeping quiet and what will happen to me if I call the police.   Meanwhile, I've already called the police and I'm terrified.   The man is threatening that if I tell what I know,  I will end up the same way as the dead woman.

I woke up in a panic at 4am  ….. my heart thumping hard in my chest, and with a pounding headache.