Walking Through Trauma ... My Journey

  Abandonment Apparently this is an issue for me.   It’s 5:55am and I haven’t been able to sleep.   Just cat napping throughout the night.   I put the tv on and was watching an old tv show called, Diagnosis Murder, and I must have fallen asleep as I just woke up from one of those abandonment dreams.    The characters in the dream were Steve and Mark Sloan from the tv show …. probably because I’d been watching the show when I fell asleep.   We were in a house and discussing going out for dinner.    They headed out to the car while I went to get a jacket and turn off the house lights.    When I came outside the car was gone.    They had left without me.    Interestingly the outside of the location was our home up north on Georgian Bay.    The driveway there was a half circle that had a defined enter and exit   (due to terrain).    The geography is easier to draw than to explain: I looked down the drive towards the main road and noticed that a tree was down and blocking the “in” dir

  Tire Blew! I was on my way to Burlington about a week or so ago when my passenger side front tire blew.    I had made it as far as the Ancaster Fairgrounds.     Any further   and it would have happened on the highway.    I called CAA thinking I would need a tow home and was alarmed to hear a message saying that due to Covid 19 their drivers were no longer taking passengers in the tow trucks.    The message stated that if your vehicle needed a tow,   you would have to find an alternate mode of transportation to get home.    That all too familiar feeling of fear and panic swept over me.    Followed by the urge to just burst into tears.    I had 3 dogs with me and I don’t have anyone at home to call upon for help.    I felt stranded and helpless. I didn’t know if there were any taxi’s operating during covid.    If there were it would have to come from Brantford which was is a fair distance from where I was,   and would have to take me a half hour further away from Brantford in order